My Life’s Journey so far

So, I went training last night on a night I haven’t been to for a long time. I knew my friend was also going to be there so I had some support from at least one person and could enjoy it if there was partner work. Which there was 🙂

My main instructor wasn’t there again but I am feeling stronger (I really think writing things down is helping a lot) so decided that one toxic person was not going to stop me doing something I absolutely love.

I am sure people got a real shock to see me there particularly as our instructor was away.

There is a class tonight which I never go to. The venue itself and the way it is is just the most unwelcoming for me so I don’t ever bother, except when there is a particular class moved occasionally to that night after the regular class, and I dodge that wherever possible even though I hate to do that. Well I have decided that the one that has been moved there after tonights class I will not be attending. I was 50:50 and was only going to go if our instructor is back, and I saw earlier when I drove past that he isn’t. I also cannot see another car for a different instructor and am not willing to risk that he has asked the bully to take the extra after the class. There is literally no way I could bring myself to attend that. Too much opportunity for her to lie again and no one there who knows who will be on my side.

I really think all my potential decisions and possible training future have opened my world view of my situation and it feels less despairing than it did. Even if I am still avoiding certain things I shouldn’t be.

Going to practice my patterns at home instead 🥋