My Life’s Journey so far

I have definitely been feeling more positive within myself lately. Writing whatever comes into my head about what I am currently feeling/thinking about has helped so much.

I went out for a drink and a catch up last night with a great friend who I haven’t seen for a while after an extremely hard 3 hour training session yesterday. We are always in contact as we help each other with the kids etc.. but it has been quite a while since we have just gone somewhere and talked just me and her. And it was good. Arranged last minute and was something I didn’t realise I needed before she messaged about it.

The lovely thing about my mindset lately is that I am reconnecting with good people in my life. My circle may be very small but it is made up of the best people I could hope to have and I am seeing this again with clearer vision and appreciating it. I will work hard to make sure that I don’t drift away and become as insular again as a way to protect myself. I need to remember that I do not need protecting from everyone and when I feel bad, these good people will keep me from disconnecting altogether. Last night was also another thing that made me realise how I am trying to break out of my lane as I wore a lovely dress that was not black. I don’t always wear black but I do a lot and there is usually always something that is black. Nothing was last night and previously I may have put this dress on and then chickened out, but this time I didn’t. It is small, but major for me.

Having had three days on the bounce with catch ups and good things, there has been a definite message to me as every one of them has commented that I seem different, glowing and my friend last night said I seemed happier. Things haven’t improved to make me happier, I am just altering my viewpoint and figuring out possible solutions. I am also willing to change and look for the good in that rather than resisting it. I am also accepting certain things that I was hoping for will never be and it does give a sense of calm which I suppose lends itself to the feeling happier.

Going to potter about doing chores today and chill as much as possible as I am wrecked from training yesterday. Only thing I will do today is my stretching routine as that is non negotiable 🙂 But I will do it later in the day.