My Life’s Journey so far

I had a conversation today which made me realise that I am waiting for things to improve at training, but they are never going to. In fact they are only going to get worse. The person in question is definitely comfortable being an absolute arse at training and is becoming less subtle and now trying to make it seem as though it is me a touch more openly.

You cannot do what you have and have me act as though all is OK for your comfort. I am not concerned with ‘appearances’. If you want to appear like a good person, be a bloody good person! If you are not a good person, so not expect me to play along with your charade.

Problem is, everyone else is buying into her BS, and clearly are on the ‘appearances’ train with her.

I feel at the moment that if my plans to move places to train does not happen, there is a real possibility that I may just quit altogether. Which I REALLY do not want to do. However, if I believe there is no other avenue open to me, I will do it. And I will not protect anyone. If I am able to move, I will give a party line on why, as I know that the right people will know exactly why, because I will lay it out in great detail.

Hopefully being a calm person who is able to articulate well will help me in my endeavours..

Maybe it’s a moot point. Maybe I will have to start over somewhere else anyway because I plan to get divorced. We shall see what happens after my big event. Writing like this has definitely helped me feel stronger, I may just throw some truth grenades out there at inopportune moments. I am usually very closed mouthed so these will take even me by suprise. What I do know is, things are bubbling up.