My Life’s Journey so far

What a weekend of training it has been 🙂 Not as intense as previous sessions we have had but I have thoroughly enjoyed it. So many good things, and lots of things I know I need to work on. Some I managed to demonstrate improvement and some less so, but all still good. My patterns felt really good and I even got a lovely compliment on them from a fellow competitor who I have a lot of respect for. And he came over to me specifically to say it aswell which made it all the better.

I did my patterns in more nerve wracking conditions today aswell and I can see a difference in my kicks specifically, which I have been working very hard on. The rest of my patterns are good, I know this, but my kicks have always needed work. Power and height, and I have been working very hard on this area. I can see the improvement though 🙂

The dark spot of the day was being partnered with the daughter of the toxic person I have to deal with. Her clear attempt (and likely success) to convey that I am the problem was so apparent, I am sure I made a FFS face at one point. Thankfully the partnering was only two minutes, and also done on purpose aswell I feel. There is a clear reason I know this, but all it did was make me furious that this young person is trying to drive her mother’s narrative. It has been so long, and although I used to cut some slack as she is just toeing the line because of her mother, I also believe she is a young adult and should know better. Their level of lying and manipulation is astounding and I no longer have any leeway to give to her.

It has made me realise that things will only change if I make a change so I will look for the most opportune time following our big event to broach the subject of my moving clubs. I am committed to just looking out for myself on this matter after recent events. I spend way too much time thinking about everyone else, and where I won’t go out of my way to make things difficult for others, I need to put myself first for a while to get everything on an even keel.