My Life’s Journey so far

I was initially going to start at the beginning but decided to start now and backtrack.

I have been training in Taekwondo for almost 10 years now and it is truly the best thing I have ever done. I absolutely love it. Even the areas I am not good at 🙂 I am however, good at patterns (also known as ‘forms’ or ‘poomsae’ to others).

I teach and also compete as a senior female black belt.

My wonderful world of Taekwondo has been marred by the presence of a very toxic individual within the club I train at. I never believed I would ever encounter the level of vindictiveness and calculated campaign against me that I have with this individual. Made worse by the fact she befriended me a few years before she ‘came back’ to Taekwondo herself. I have had many realisations regarding this ‘friendship’ since all my trouble with her began, and I am sad to say that I do believe she targeted me from the start. Motivations may have changed during and since but I can see now with hindsight and clarity that it was her manipulations towards someone else that prompted her to befriend me.

When this person restarted what I didn’t see was her jealousy (I am finally admitting that’s what it was) that because I had been training for a year and a half in the club before her meant I had already forged relationships with others, and she didn’t know many people at all. She used me to get close to all the people I knew.

The current situation is that all the people who used to be friends with and speak to me no longer do and I now feel like an outsider in a club where I was well liked and respected. All because of lies she has told. I have only realised recently (last few days) that the worst lie (that I know of) was probably to deflect attention away from her after I backed out of an event I desperately wanted to do, and had actually qualified for as a competitor solely due to her. I have connected many dots but it has taken me a year and a half to connect those ones. Still much to be revealed concerning her manipulations with people. This blog is my starting point for telling my side of the story because so far not one person has actually asked me anything about what has happened. Disheartening to realise that no one actually cares and those I thought of as friends actually weren’t. I mean, if they were they would have surely have tried to talk to me about what was going on? I see that they were quite happy to jump into her camp so cannot have thought that well of me to begin with.

I have good days and bad days but am feeling stronger all the time and have even come up with a solution. Just have to wait and see if I want to pull the trigger on that and if I do, I have to wait till after the next big event. Ironically her role at that event will be a factor in what I decide I want to do.

I know right now my posts will jump to different timelines during my life, TKD training, events, current and past. Just looking to offload and tell my story.

I will just settle on something and write. I will try and stick to a chronological order when I talk more about what I started above. The rest will fall where it lands.

Thanks for reading ❤️